Obviously not everyone can cut is as a Mom, sorry gentlemen. For us ladies being a Mom is super easy. Like we were made for it, not just our bodies but our minds. Yes, we get “mommy’s brain” but we also have mommy intuition. I believe this kicks in as soon as we find out we’re going to be moms and for some even sooner. My daughter is a perfect example of this.
You might be asking me how my daughter is an example of having mommy intuition well let me share with you how my journey of becoming of a Mommy started.
My friend had just found she was pregnant and we were close so when I started sharing the same symptoms as her I just figured they were sympathy symptoms. Plus, I can’t count how many times I had thought I was pregnant, just to find out it was nothing. So I had convinced myself that all the symptoms I was having were nothing; I mean yeah I had missed my monthly but I’ve been late before, I was never one to be on a regular schedule. Well, my friend and her grandmother convinced to me go ahead and take a pregnancy so I did; figured like usual I’d take that test and as soon as I got the negative sign my monthly would shortly follow. However, this time it was different instead of having one line, I got two.
As you could imagine I was emotional, never did I think one could feel two extreme emotions at once but I did; they were fear and excitement. I have tried in the past to get pregnant but after so many negatives I finally came to the assumption that I was not going to be a mom, so with the idea of being a mom disappeared I began living a life that was not fit for a child. I had started to party almost every night, now I wasn’t dipping into drugs but I was in a bar every night except Sunday night. Even when I wasn’t at the bars I was drinking and to top it all off I had no respect for myself or my body.
Though as soon I found out I was going to be a mom, my mommy instincts kicked in and anything that wasn’t good for me such as drinking, smoking, and even the greasy fatty foods made me sick. So almost as quick as that second line showed up I dropped all my bad habits and began to make a plan so I could give my child the best chance possible.
Now when I found out I was pregnant I had gone in to the Family Planning clinic to get a doctor’s note saying that I was pregnant. Now when I went in I had shared how I was having really bad cramping in my lower abdomen; so the nurse had suggested I mentioned that to my obstetrics-gynecologist just in-case there was nothing going on with the baby.
When I had called in they decided to schedule me within that same week to do an ultrasound. Now when I was scheduled the nurse had informed me that there was a 50-50 chance of me being able to hear the heartbeat. I had proceeded to go into my appointment with the hope of hearing a heartbeat but also with knowing that it wouldn’t mean anything if I didn’t.
After my ultrasound I was then asked to go and consult with the doctor about what they had seen in the ultrasound. Now the fetus was right where it needed to be, but as I was already being told the chances of not hearing a heartbeat; there was no sound of heart along with no traces of a heartbeat. My doctor had tried to convince me that I was going through a miscarriage and that I should take a pill to help speed along the miscarriage; in my opinion it was like a pill to help abort the fetus.
I sat that trying to talk to the doctor about the fact of what the nurse had told me when I had set up the appointment about how there was a chance of me not being able to hear the heartbeat; however, she seemed to be too busy to talk to me a blew me off by telling me that she advises against me not taking the pill. I was okay with the idea of not taking the pill, mostly due to the fact that I was not 100% convinced that I was having a miscarriage.
I then decided to carry on with the pregnancy like I had planned and if I was to lose the fetus, naturally; then I would except that the doctor was right. Well little did I know when I went to go in for my first prenatal checkup the doctor decided to cancel it for me. I then had to spend around 4 hours in the hospital having to do blood work and then waiting to do an ultrasound with the hospital radiologist just to prove I was right. My baby was very much alive.
After all, that I had decided to not take anything anyone had to say about my child seriously without putting my gut feeling into consideration. And now I have a very healthy 6 months almost 7-month old baby girl.
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